Loosening my grip

I used to thrive on organization.  I loved my planner.  And I used to save everything.  EV-RE-THING.  It was all about my desire for control.  If I held on tight enough, all would be well.  Or so I thought.  

I worried about what would happen if I let go.  If I loosened my grip.  If I just let things free flow.  I really thought that I was the one in control.  I was so wrong.  And I'm glad.  

Things changed.  Slowly at first.  I wouldn't even know what to write in a planner anymore & I can't wait to sell more of my "stuff".  I love living in the moment and I feel immensely lighter.  I now know (for absolute certain) that God is in control.  He has shown me time and time again.  In the most beautiful ways.  

Now don't get me wrong, I do think of the future.  I pay my bills on time.  I keep a few notes in the calendar on my phone.  I have cherish possessions.  But I just don't obsess over my future like I used to & I don't keep every little thing that comes into my life.

Recently we watched the movie "Up" at my sister's recommendation.  I could really relate to the main character.  You should definitely watch it.  Cuddle up on the couch with your family & enjoy. :-)

I'm not really sure where I'm going with this post, other than to say that you'll never find me dragging around my house attached to a bunch of balloons.  ;-)  I'd carry my daughter or my husband up a mountain and back if they needed me to, but my house or my stuff- nope.  Not any more.  Thank you God.  :-)

Do Not Worry

“Therefore I tell you, do not worry about your life, 

what you will eat or drink; or about your body, what you will wear.

 Is not life more than food, and the body more than clothes? 

Look at the birds of the air; 

they do not sow or reap or store away in barns, 

and yet your heavenly Father feeds them. 

Are you not much more valuable than they? 

Can any one of you by worrying add a single hour to your life?

“And why do you worry about clothes? 

See how the flowers of the field grow. 

They do not labor or spin. 

Yet I tell you that not even Solomon 

in all his splendor was dressed like one of these. 

If that is how God clothes the grass of the field, 

which is here today and tomorrow is thrown into the fire, 

will he not much more clothe you—you of little faith?  

So do not worry, saying, 

‘What shall we eat?’ or ‘What shall we drink?’ or ‘What shall we wear?’ 

For the pagans run after all these things, 

and your heavenly Father knows that you need them.  

But seek first his kingdom and his righteousness, 

and all these things will be given to you as well. 

Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, 

for tomorrow will worry about itself. 

Each day has enough trouble of its own.

(Matthew 6:25-34)